I saw this tree in a park the other day..standing alone! The tree standing there strong made me think. What would this lonely tree think?? Would it think that I am glad to be alone – no one to take the water that I need, no one to take the nutrients I need from the soil. I don’t have to waste my energy on fighting for my daily survival. So what if I don’t have anyone to talk to but at least I am free to do what I want to without being judged or have too many parameters that would define what and how I should do things. OR would it think I don’t have anyone; I have to stay here alone and no one to challenge me to do better.
Think about it – kind of how we would view our lives at different points of time. We love having people around and having them to love, to hate, to compete. But sometimes, we wish we could do things on our own in our own way and not let others define how we should act or live. We just wish we could just follow our instincts, be able to show our emotions as they are and not be shunned down for it. That lonely tree can show its emotions and follow its instincts since there is no one to tell it to behave in a certain way, on the other hand, it does not have anyone around who would be there to see when it is happy or when it is sad. Maybe as humans, we want to share our lives but how much of sharing of our lives causes unhappiness???
Should the lonely tree be happy about being alone or sad that it does not have anyone near?
I was watching this song – a love song sung by a beautiful voice and beautiful melodious music. It wasn’t just that caught my attention. The actress in the song had the most wonderful smile. It wasn’t just a smile, the smile showed how much in love she was. Her whole face reflected that. You know how people tell others – You are glowing..you must be in love”. That kind of glowing face and smile. And I wondered does that kind of glow last. Does everyone still feel the same kind of glow and love after years of being together? I know there is a difference between initially being in love and getting used to each other. Do we all forget to have that glow and smile as we go through our lives busy with our routines. Do we pause our lives and think of the initial smile and bring it back to us from time to time?
Do we rewind and our eyes twinkle and radiate all the love that we felt when we first fell in love? Life may not be rainbows all the time but can we bring back our rainbows from time to time?
I always talk about emotions. And sometimes, I feel each emotion takes up a lot of my life! I look at people around me and looks like they have a check on their emotions, a control over what will or will not consume them. How do they do it when I can’t??
My friend once told me your face immediately reflects what you are feeling. And I feel it is because anything that may be happy, sad, angry takes over me. It engulfs me so much that I can only think about that emotion for a long time..particularly if it is something that has hurt me. I can’t let go of it. I have to fight it so much that it takes a lot of my energy.
And then I see people who have so much control over it. It is like they have figured out life and how to live it without getting affected much. They have a tight hold of what they feel and will never do anything that will make them feel vulnerable.
So my question is how are they like that and I am like this?? What made them and what made me??