There is a bend around the corner,
The one I have feared for a long time,
I take one step forward but…
Take two back because I am afraid ,
I am afraid of what I might encounter at the bend,
My mind is always filled with “what if it is something bad?”
My fear over shadows my willingness,
My doubts cloud up the road in which I am standing right now,
This dense fog is not allowing me to see,
The confusion makes me just stand where I am,
But I know if I have to touch my dream,
If I have to find what I have lost,
I have to move forward and…………..
KEEP GOING and brave myself to go around the bend!!
I hummed a tune today,
And I wonder for how long I haven’t sung a song,
There were times when I was happy like a bird,
Flying away to horizon,
Singing from my heart,
Didn’t have a care in the world..
I smiled today,
And I wonder for how long I haven’t smiled from my heart,
I used to laugh till tears dropped out of my eyes,
I was happy like a baby,
And have joy to spread around,
Didn’t know anything wrong in the world..
I promise to turn my life around,
And feel happiness again!
Feeling alone in midst of a crowd,
I laugh with everyone but my heart is somewhere else,
I speak but the words don’t belong to me,
I smile but the smile is meant for someone else,
Would I feel the same way if you were around?
You would make me feel that I meant something, not just anyone,
You could bring a genuine smile on my face,
You are the one who understands me,
You are the one I am looking for.
But where are you?
Have I not found you yet?
Or have I lost you?
Or am I still waiting for you…???
Sometimes, I doubt if you really are my friend,
Sometimes, I feel you don’t care about me,
Sometimes, I feel you are there but not for me,
Is it because I am expecting more from you?
Is it because I want you to be the same as I am?
I want you to be yourself,
I don’t want you to change anything about yourself.
But I do feel there is a distance,
Sometimes, you are my best friend,
But other times, you don’t even ask,
Should friendship be so difficult?
Shouldn’t it be natural?
I will still wait for you to be ready,
Because I really care for our friendship,
Waiting for you, my friend….